The week of our Anniversary...

This isn't a picture from the day of our Anniversary but this one was taken at a church shower for a friend of ours the week of our Anniversary! We keep trying to figure out how to take ones of ourselves! Ha Ha! Jeremys cheeks are beat red from the wind in MN while on his mission trip and my hair would have to be in my face, the lighting is horrible... my hair isn't black but needless to say I still love this picture!

I had my doctors appointment with my diabetic doctor today. I am doing great! I was a little disappointed I have to admit. I have lost 31 lbs since I was 5 weeks pregnant and I am now almost 24. I had hoped to make it to the 8th month without gaining anything.... well.. I didn't do it... I have gained my first "tiny" bit of weight! YES I have... 6 ounces! The doctor says it is possible it was the bottle of water I drank before I stepped on the scale but I will know for sure in 2 weeks when I do it again. No more sugar free M & M's for me! Ha Ha! I am so serious about this....

I am going to post tonight about our little guy and a picture to share with you. I would have already done so but we keep having scanner issues. I am telling Jeremy I need that new lap top! He just got one so I need one right !?!?!

We are proud to announce...

We are having a SON! We both are so excited!

I am going to write more about our little guy but it is late and I am exhausted. Our appointment was at 4:00 and it was perfect.. when we left we went to dinner for our Anniversary and then to Dillards to shop! I couldn't help myself. Polo and Tommy happend to be on sale! I will tell you all about him and how the appointment went along with our name for him and why it was chosen 1st chance I have!

Our 8th Anniversary and all was perfect!

??? Have I told you ???

Tomorrow is our 8 year Anniversary and have I told you that I am the luckiest woman in the world ?!?!? Yes I know what some are thinking but you can't make me think anything less -- I'm so blessed, I have the greatest husband ever. You should think exactly that about your husband too! Everyone woman should. If you can't then something is wrong. God has been so wonderful to me.... words could never express what my heart feels! Tomorrow is our 8th Anniversary and they have been the greatest times of my life yet I know the sweetest is yet to come. I am so looking forward to what tomorrow holds and the next day and the day after --- forever!

I hope to get to post some pictures of us and I have our pictures back from his mission trip and some pictures of my dear friends as well. Hopefully tomorrow we will get a new picture of our baby and maybe we can scan that one and post it too! Pray for us, we go to the doctor at 4:00 and it would make for an even more special day if we were to find out what the baby is.

I spent today in much thought and all afternoon after work preparing Jeremys gift. I can't wait to give it to him! I am so excited about it. We are pretty personal and we don't like to just 'tell all' especially over the internet but maybe he won't mind if I share some of what our day tomorrow. We'll see! I gave him one hint today - he asked for one (only one) so I threw him off... I told him I wanted a new car! Should have seen the look on his face. Our cars our paid for and we are wanting to buy a home so that really threw him off guard. Needless to say I was kidding ... wonder if I will end up with a plastic one ?!?!! He has such a sense of humor - there is no telling what he'll do to get me back for that one!

I've gotten a few posts, several emails and phone calls... do NOT worry...... if we find out what the baby is I will make calls inbetween the doctors office and our Anniversary dinner and then afterwards to try and reach everyone (I know some read my blog and don't have a blogger account so this message is for YOU guys). Britt, if you are reading this.... I love you and thank you for our card! I know it was you and not Aaron my wonderful brother who mailed it. Hee Hee! Leta, thanks for remembering our special day! Your email meant alot to me. Laura, if we find out what our baby is I PROMISE to call you! Michelle, let me make it out of the office hee hee. You will be one of the first to know. Don't panic. I am not keeping it a secret AND there are not two! Promise! Believe me, if we find out at this point I won't be able to contain it! Just remember the lastest we will know is next Monday. That makes me feel better already. Last but not least, keep your fingers crossed this isn't my first appointment to have gained anything! :0) Amanda, pray!

***Blogger stinks tonight! It won't let me upload anything***

GO Razorbacks!

Well... I am so excited. I have the best boss in the whole wide world.... I was able to get my husband tickets to the game today thanks to my boss! We went to get them lastnight and Jeremy was excited. The 50 yard line! He has been able to go to two home games this season and just loves it! DID I MENTION WE WON THE GAME TODAY ? GOOD JOB HOGS!

He loves football - such a man! It is so funny to hear him and his buddies talk.... even if he is with my dad and brothers they talk the game talk. The first game all the guys went - Jeremy, my dad and both my brothers --- you would have thought they had been on the field playing the game themselves. They never every call, every move each guy made, who scored what AND who caused the team a bad play! Cracks me up. Our we as women this bad when it comes to shopping, SALES, decorating, scrapping (that one is for you Michelle) ?!?!?!?

I went shopping today for maternity clothes with my good friend Machele.... she and I work together,go to church together, do lunch together, and still spend time together on the weekends. (She doesn't have a blog but she needs one! I am trying to talk her into it!) She is precious! A jewel. One of a kinda - it is rare to find a friend such as she is and I am blessed to have her in my life. She was saved - it will be a year this October and my daddy just baptized her two weeks ago. It was such a blessing. There is nothing like seeing someone you loved get saved and have such a heart change! God always gives what we need doesn't he? I was just thinking today while talking to her that God brought her into my life in the perfect time. We have known each other a long time, we even went to church together growing up but we never knew one another. I've had the chance to really know who she is and what God is doing in her life and through her. I am thankful that even in changing her and saving her he knew we'd be the best of friends. He knew I needed this friend in my life. He always knows what he is doing! BTW, the shopping was a huge success. I ended up getting a few things. I still need more jeans/pants! Do they not know short people get pregnant too ?!?!?

Hopefully you all had a great weekend. I spent the last hour chatting my head off with Michelle. Thank you, I needed someone to vent to. Soon hubby will be here to go to dinner and I'll get to her about those Razorbacks!
Tuesday is our next big day! I am not holding my breath but we may get to find out what our baby is.... God only knows! I think we have decided it may just be Jeremy & I to go OR maybe just my mom and dad. It would be wonderful to find out on our 8th anniversary! We'll see..

WOOOOW

My hubby is less than 2 hrs from home and boy am I glad. A week away this time was something for me I tell ya! I am ready to have him home for a while! They had a great trip in MN and was able to minister to both the adults and the children. He and my dad were able to hand out lots and lots of bibles, preach to them and win souls! They took alot of pictures so once we have a little extra time I will scan them and post some for you to see! The Indian tribe there is very neglected, forgotten and hungry. They were able to feed them every day and help them with things they needed done around the reservation. I can't wait for them to be go back next year because several of us are going. We plan to give our groceries, feed them every day, witness to them, have church services and teach them about Jesus. I am praying about what God would have me to do now! I am so thankful the mission trip was a great success and the Lord blessed. I have come to realize we all have a mission field to reach - it may be next door, down the street or a few states away. You don't have to go oversea or to another country to tell someone who is lost about Jesus. Amanda is full proof of that. If you have a chance read her story "Exciting News" from this week. It will bless your heart - it did mine!

I hope to have a fun filled, relaxing weekend! I went today and finally got a new cell phone. I love it! Its the smallest flip phone they make! Here is the picture of it...




??????? Tiny huh ??????? It really is this small....

Now if only I can figure it out. I went to get the Pink Razor and the girl talked me out of it. She could have made an extra $150 commission but she didn't care or so she said. She said they are having a lot of problems with the Razors - reception isn't good! If you have a Razor and love it don't hate me or anything - just telling you what the lady told me. I would think she'd be 100% honest especially over a sale difference of $150 bucks! <> Writing this made me think of Amanda's post about her new cell - hope I can figure out how to use mine!

You guys pray we can find out what our precious child is on Tuesday. Its our 8 year Anniversary - it would be wonderful AND I'd really love to get my nursery started seeing as how I have two beds, two everything on hold! I also have my first shower in October. My family wanted to do my first shower and to beat the others to it they are having it early. OH and I was teasing Michelle just today - I am going to find out what this baby is and not tell for a while.. she didn't like that one bit! The Lord is teaching her patience thru my child too!

And Again.....

Isn't this fun ?!?!? I had 80 emails in my inbox wondering what the baby is! We are going a week from tomorrow on the 26th to try again..... it will be our 8th Anniversary and we just may go alone this time! Last time it was crAZy with the gang. I find myself changing my mind frequently so that might change as well but I am loving the idea of it being our 8 year Anniversary & Jeremy was thrilled when I called to tell him about that! We'll see!

BeLIEVe it OR NoT

I am sorry I am just now posting. It has been a very long day and a longer night. I am so sad! BELIEVE it or not we didn't get to find out what our baby is.

My appointment was at 4:00. We all sat for an hour before they told us my doctor was called to "Catch" a baby - it shouldn't have taken but a few minutes. Next thing I know they call me back to tell me he said to wait on him, he'd come to my ultrasound when he was finished so they took me on back. We wait and wait - at 6:00 we find out he was down there fixing to come back up and another one was ready to push. Needless to say he delivered a boy AND a girl - sure wish I knew which ours was! Hee Hee! At 6:10 he comes in and does the ultrasound to find our little one on its tummy (again) and so he finally gets the baby to move and his pager goes off.... he pauses a few and makes a call to find he is going to have to go back up to help another doctor. He continues to find the baby is moving around like crazy when he gets his page - hurry! Needless to say we are now 6:30 and still are not sure what our baby is. I was disappointed and so is Jeremy!

I am telling you guys one thing - the Lord, he is teaching me patience because being calm, no worries and stress free with patience is something I am not. I have learned so many things being pregnant. I am so much calmer knowing God is in full control. I worry and stress from time to time but realize the truth of trusting HIM! I have to call in the morning to schedule our next appointment and ultrasound. Until then we will just keep wondering if we are having a son or daughter.

Thank you to all my friends and family who came both to the ultrasound and to dinner with us. Thank you to my blogging friends for the emails and posts.... you are all the greatest! This baby is so loved by many! We are blessed! So blessed! Jeremy is leaving for a mission trip so it will be atleast a week before we can reschedule. Please pray for him & my dad as they travel this week!

There is a reason, a purpose under heaven for everything ......

~Email

I just wanted to say thank you to my friends who have emailed me this week regarding the baby. It means alot that you girls think of me and have been praying for me. Some of you check on me from time to time while others do on a weekly and yet some times daily basis. I love you guys - your the best!

Lots of email -- yes I am going to let you all know as soon as I find out and yes I am going to reveal the names! Both for a boy and a girl have sentimental meaning to Jeremy & I. Just can't wait to call our baby by his or her name!

Again thank you to my online buddies and ones I call friends - Veronica, you are priceless! I've enjoyed our talks so much and the fact we have been pregnant at the same time. You've challenged me that no matter what - just be faithful to prayer! Amanda, thanks for all the pregnancy advice and tips. Most of all for praying for me when the tests were all being ran! I've learned "Trust HIM". Your scripture you shared with me - it has stuck! I believe your a prayer warrior! Kristina, your awesome and keep my blog looking awesome! You have a heart of God! You inspire me in some many area's of being a mommy - I can't name them all. Gwen, I just love you! I admire so many things about you! Knowing you in the little time I have has made me see that there isn't any challenge as a mother too big! Your kids are so blessed to have you as mommy!

Michelle - just one more day and it won't drive you crAZy anymore not knowing what this baby is! We've been through alot together over the years and I am glad you have been here for this! I hope you will be there to share with us the day the baby is born. I believe in you and I know what is deep inside you - God will finish the work he has started. Remember Proverbs 31 ... it will grow us and lead us as wives and as a mommy. Thank you for allowing God to be the center of our friendship - it is perfect. When it seems that no one cares & life is sometimes too hard, remember I love you and I am behind you cheering you on! Keep praying... be strong... victory is yours!

Heather - You have no idea what it means to me that you have chosen to be there tomorrow & for the birth of our baby. I remember being there when you found out that Mariah was a girl AND I will never forget the day you named her after her aunt Christy... I've always dreamed of this day - being a mommy and being one for the very first time is simply amazing. I am speechless, God once again has showed his power and his glory. You are MY prayer warrior! God knit our hearts together and I know life gets busy especially when we are both going in a million different directions. It may not always be ramon noodles and ketchup at 3 am but a lifetime is not too long to live as friends. I love you! (Yeah Yeah!) Some day we will walk streets of gold together! Remember God has seen your faithfullness, your obedience and he knows your hearts. He has those prayers bottled up inside. You challenge me beyond measure as a Godly wife! A pure example of what Jesus called us to be. AND... It shall come to pass! I believe with you....

I was just telling someone the other day of what I have learned about quality of a friend is the heart of what matters not quantity.... I could write to a million others but you girls were on my heart! Thank you for being my friends and for those of you far away - we may never meet in person this side of heaven but we will some day!

Two to go....

Only two more days to go ... no phone calls of cancellation, no change in appointment, and no word from the office this time. Looks like Thursday will be just fine! Unless this little one just refuses to let us know we will finally meet our son or daughter. It is awesome being pregnant and whichever God has chosen to give us is wonderful but I know there is going to be new feelings, new emotions and an even greater joy knowing which is growing inside of me. The anticipation has finally caught up with me (my family and some of our close friends were there weeks ago!) and I am ready! Jeremy called and the revival is going great but he too is ready to be home tomorrow and to our appointment on Thursday. We will celebrate with family and a few close friends Thursday evening over dinner..... I will keep you posted. Veronica, I will call you personally! :0) Email me and tell me how late is okay to call because we may be out for a while Thursday evening! Pray now that the baby will let us know!*!*!*!

You should see....

this house! We have been working for weeks and it has finally all come together! We have literally turned this place upside down. I can't believe all the things sitting in my garage. I keep asking Jeremy where in the world it all came from !?!?! Where did we have all this stuff ?!?!? From closets to drawers and ceilings to base boards! It is all organized and we have made room for baby! Now--- the hArD part! The garage sale this coming weekend! If you live anywhere close by as some of you do you should come check it all out.... its not just our things either its a 5/6 family sale! It is actally so much that we will have to wait for some to sell to be able to sit the remainder of some of it out.

In the process of all the cleaning and new purchases we made (you know those 300 'bright white' hangers and kitchen stuff as I told you about a few posts back) one I love is a new bombay chest Jeremy got for me to put in the staircase landing. It's beautiful! I went and got a plant to put on it (fake of course so I won't kill it) and some awesome picture frames. We are praying that Thursday we will be able to find out what our baby is so we can prepare the nursery. I am so excited about that I can't stand it. Believe it or not my first shower is the first weekend in October. It's not too far away and everyone is dying to know if we are having a boy or girl. We went to register but actually not officially... Jeremy is in revival this week and will return for the ultrasound but leaves again for a mission trip this weekend. This is his last long stretch to be gone so long and so far before the baby is born. I am thankful that over the next upcoming months he will be home more and closer to come when he is away. We picked everything out together so once the sex it finally revealed it can all come together! Have you ever known someone to have to go and pick out things for either or ?!?!? I wanted to be sure he and I did it together so it is the way we did it.

I've gotten several emails regarding my post on nesting... seems to be that you all have been there. Helps me to know I am not the only SiLlY one! I've told the hanger story a million times and it just cracks people up. It won't be the last funny I am sure because I have my list of other things to get done once all of the stuff is sold and the nursery is done. The windows inside and out and the cabinets need new liner. I may have to call Merry Maids if I wear Jeremy & I out (our moms too). What will be something after all of this is if a few other things fall into place for us and we end up buying our first home before the baby is born *!*!*!*!*

Red & White

(blogger isn't letting my post my pictures! I will try later!)

This weekend was so much fun! We shopped, ate out with friends/family, went to fish, shopped some more, went to the movies, you name it! Too bad its is over but alteast now there are only 4 days to go before the next one! My hubby got to go to the first Razorback game of the season even if they ended up loosing! He had a great time with his friends & his brother Daniel. We ran around a bit on Saturday together before the game checking out baby items for our registry. We will find out on the 14th (Lord willing) what our baby is and then my showers actually begin the 1st weekend of October. It is going to be a little early but with the holidays it is easier for everyone. Perfectly fine with us since this is our first and we are new at this!

When we came home on Saturday we came home to a door full of balloons -- Red & White galore. Razorback colors of course! Jeremy is a huge fan and we both love going to the games. We received this from some of our good friends who normally do this for Jeremy & I the opening of season! The baby also received some Razorback things that are adorable! Are your husbands like this ??? Do they have a favorite team ??? Jeremy is already excited about this coming weekend when they actually play at home again! Unusual.... He had such a busy spring & summer .. fall is busy but things really slow down some. I welcome him being home alot more!

Did you guys nest so they call it when you were pregnant ??? WOW... I didn't think such a thing was true but my is it ever. We have been from room to room, closet to closet, kitchen, you name it.. tonight is the huge closet downstairs and then the garage once we get to it. I am having a huge yard sale next weekend on Friday and Saturday. I can't believe the stuff we have! Wanna hear something cRAzzzY ??? I went thru our closets and we only use plastic hangers... I don't know what hit me but I wanted them all white and not off white either! So at 9:00 at night Jeremy is running from one WM to another buying over 300 hangers! Needless to say all of our hangers match, they are all bright white and boy did I feel silly once I was over my spell... :0) I am anal about my house and I know it... it has to be spotless but I have been so relaxed since being pg! I really have.. something has hit... they say it is the thing called ......nesting! I think Jeremy has it too... we (he) cleaned out all of the kitchen. You know how you 'collect' glasses and such over the years? Well, its all in the yard sale too! Forks bend, you loose pieces and such ??? YES ....All in the yard sale.... hopefully we now make enough to replace our expenses! I really hope some of you can relate! If not I am just soooo silly! Nesting.... so they say ?!?!

GUESS wHAt ?!?!?!

Just wanted to let everyone know that we didn't find out what our baby is (again) today! The ultrasound tech had the receptionist call and cancel my appointment. Come to find out my doctor didn't have any idea this had been done and and so here is the plan ....... My doctor himself is doing my ultrasound to let us know what this little one is on September 14th! My friends & family are going CrAZy having to wait! I was so upset when I found out it was cancelled. I was loving the anticipation of it all but so looking forward to today. I know God has something in store for this happening and as I have been told --- if it is to make sure without a doubt of what our baby is this is perfectly okay. I want to be sure because a friend of mine had to return all PINK! In all honesty, the Lord is teaching this little mommy patience! Oh, I almost forgot to report to you --- I lost another 2 lbs these past two weeks. I am so happy! Eating healthy sure pays off! I will keep you posted!

We are trying AgAiN

just a week away..... tHurSdAy !!!

Yes once again we will try to see what this little one is! Next Thursday @ 11:00 am. We are really excited. We have our names picked out for sure and I went by today to order a gift for Jeremy to give to him the morning we head over to the ultra sound!

Since being a diabetic the doctor has said the baby may be bigger... it was an inside joke between my husband and I that we'd have a "itty bitty" one because of the thought of it being bigger.... as in sumo wrestler! Ha Ha Funny thing.... everyone I know who is diabetic has had smaller babies! Jeremy now talks to the baby and calls he or she "itty bitty" so I went today and had a lady do a receiving blanket with a girraffe on it that says "Daddy's Itty Bitty"! it is going to be adorable! I also HAD to make sure to get one with a Arkansas Razorback that says "Daddy & I are HOG fans". I can't wait to give them to him!

Thanks for all your compliments to me about my weight loss... as one comment from Keri said it is kinda weird to say anything about that when your pregnant but healthy is very important to me! I have alot more to go when the baby is born. I have never set out to diet while being pregnant so don't think that!! God is just blessing me to be healthier for the baby as well as myself!

Tomorrow night is GNO (Girls Night Out) with my girlfriends and I can't wait. We are going to dinner, maybe some shopping and gotta see a CHICK FLICK! Wouldn't be GNO without it! We really have a good time and I am so blessed to be able to keep in touch with all my girlfriends - we grew up together and have known each other for years! As in 20 + years.. okay girls don't kill me... that does sound like forever ago!

Veronica, Thank you for your precious comment on my blog.... also I can't wait to find out what you are having !! Kristina, I am going to send you a pic really soon! You all have a great night. I am off to have dinner with my friend Machele.... hubby is in revival tonight! I soo miss him!

... a LoOOoP

I have to say how sorry I am to have thrown some of your for a 'loop'. My pictures "Thank Heaven for Little Boys" and "Thank Heaven for Little Girls" were just too cute... I had to post them but with the boy being on top it made some of you think we were having a BOY! I have had a few emails, phone calls and even ran into a friend today at lunch who said "you made me think you were having a BOY".... sorry!

I admit I was a disappointed on Friday when we were unable to find out what we were having. For one, we are ready to call this baby by his or her name! We are excited to reveal to family & friends the names and reason behind why we are naming our child the name we have chosen. Secondly, I am dying to get the nursery started and the furniture! BUT I must be patient.... Anyone who really knows me knows that I am not a patient person. The Lord is teaching me to be that is for sure!

I have to be honest though, it has been a blessing having not found out just yet. I never thought in a million years I would say that but it is true (Okay Michelle I know you really wanna know so you do not agree at all with that). The excitement and anticipation is something else! While I can't wait to know its been fUn, FuN, fun the past few days! People have called putting in a guess as to what they think the Lord is sending us and some of our special friends and eldery at church have just made our day! One lady told me that is all she thought about all day! I have come to realize deeply that God didn't just answer this prayer for Jeremy & I but we had people from all over praying for us --- it was a prayer God answered for many! It is so humbling to know that when some say they will pray, they will honestly seek the Lord on our behalf. God is such a great God!

You have all been a blessing to me and I thank you for checking on me. I am doing great and most of all feel so great. I have now lost 28 lbs and healthier every day. Yes, I said LOST 28 lbs. ....((( My doctor has praised me as long as they are good calories I am taking in and not empty ones!))) While moms welcome the opportunity to eat for two I have tried to be as healthy as possibe knowing I needed to AND it would be even harder to get off later. God has blessed every effort and after making these changes and feeling so good I can't say I will turn back even after the baby is born! This is just another answered prayer! My list could go on about answered prayers I am telling you and I know I will have more to report to you!

Veronica, I am praying for you today and the church situation! God will answer! Kristina, I am praying for your brother today. Sarah H, your on my heart girl --- remember your a child of the KING! He loves you!!! Michelle, your a YOUNG mom with OLD kids. You're awesome! Shannon, if you read this before GNO (Girls Night Out) Friday night --- I promise I won't post a picture to throw you for a LOOP next time! I'll call you instead!

Again....

I have tried to post again for the third time and once I am ready to save the post I get an error report and it erases my entire message to you. I will try again later!

The wait....

Well... the wait is going to be something else! Yesterday was my regular appointment with my OB doctor. I was given the great opportunity to be weighed, heard the heartbeat and .... had to cancel our 4D ultra sound for today! Good news! I have lost 28 lbs now. 9 right before I got pregnant and 19 since I my first appointment. Every two to three weeks because of me being a diabetic and at higher risk my doctor checks the heartbeat and if he can't get it really well with the doppler he will have me do a belly ultra sound.

.....Yesterday was one of those days! It was wonderful to get to see the baby and the heart rate is still 150-152 some say they can tell what it is by the heart rate --- its another 'some say' if you ask me! I did have to cancel the 4D to reveal the sex - well, I didn't have to but we chose to. She took a peek yesterday knowing we were bringing others with us the next day and she said everything is still so small AND the precious little thing was on its tummy, one arm under it and the other one --- sucking its thumb. No doubt about it -- a thumb sucker. If we would have went back today she said she would try again and maybe guess. I can't take a 'guess'. I am ordering nursery furniture, baby bedding and having someone come to paint the nursery... guessing isn't cool!



We go back on August 31st and will schedule it again then. It will be either Sept 1st or the days following labor day. I've gotten several emails so I am writing to you this way as we are fixing to walk out the door for the evening! I will respond to you all soon!

?? bOy OR gIrL ??

Your guess is as good as ours! Jeremy has said "It's a GIRL" for a really long time - actually since we have known we were expecting. Just yesterday he told me he wasn't sure! I haven't had a feeling either way. There are many reasons I think it could be a boy but just as many other reasons I think it could be a girl. So many people have told me that the mom usually has a feeling and 9 our of 10 times she is right. I just do not know!

I have done a little 'poll' to put into my journal just for fun... MANY people say girl. Infact, most of our close friends and family say girl but my mom thinks it is a boy and two other friends do. Veronica, I have your guess written down (boy). It is so funny at how people will try to guess by how you carry the baby or whether or not you have been sick. I have even had someone ask my if my belly has itched alot.... silly little things but I wonder just how true any of them really are! I know each woman is different and each pregnancy is different. I can honestly say -- it doesn't matter to Jeremy & I.

What is your guess ?

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Friday is the big day for us! We are having our ultra sound to find out what this little baby is. Jeremy & I are excited and counting the days. I tell you, this pregnancy has honestly just flown. It hit me the other day that on the 19th I am half way finished. I can't ever go back and experience this perfect time in my life again... this has been the greatest experience in our lives! I would have never really known what love at first sight meant without having been blessed with this little life.

For many of you who know me know Jeremy & I have prayed for a baby for a while. While we didn't make it an 'obsession' to have one it was always on our prayer list. For a long time I longed for the day and my heart ached at the thought of never doing so. There would be times I would think "God are you ever going to bless us with a baby"? Some days I would even get kinda down and I would say "Jeremy, is it never going to be" ? He would always reply with "It will happen, it is in Gods timing, not ours". When I stop and look back over our lives in the past eight years I realize all along he had a perfect plan and now I can see that his timing was PERFECT --for only now. If God has taught me a million things he has taught me one thing a million times ---- TRUST HIM!

With me being diabetic I have prayed for a long time to have a healthy pregnancy. Honestly, with the exception of having to be put on insulin this pregnancy has been healthy. Today I weigh 27 1/2 lbs less than I did before it all began from eating healthy and having the desire to be healthy. I have been blessed to have been able to be put on the insulin, not to be sick doing so and to feel great. So many times I struggle with the mentality that I don't want to be daibetic... and the question.... why me?. God gently reminds me I must trust in HIM and he will see me to the end. I am also reminded that we all have a cross we have to bear. There is something in all of our lives whether it be physical, spiritual or whatever the cause may be.... it is in bearing our cross that we trust in HIM.

My whole pregnancy I have been full of great JOY! A joy I have never known before. My heart has overflown at the thought of the mercy and grace our God has shown to me. Just when I thought I was blessed I had no idea just how blessed God has really made me.... I could go on and on about this but to sum it all up for you one morning while on my way to work I heard a song and it has been in my heart every since. Every word of it! It is one of those songs that you really feel deep down minister to you. It is called MORE by Lauren Talley. If you have a chance please click on the link and it is under the tracking list of songs to listen to. It blesses me each time I hear it again. (It is actually part of the song, I couldn't find the entirety of the song on the net but you may be able to). God has honestly blessed me with so much more, more than I could ever ask him for. More than I had dreamed he had in store for me.... More than my hearts desire.... how could he possibly give more....

I can't wait!!!!

Well I have to share the news! We go next Friday on the 18th to find out whether we are having a boy or a girl. Jeremy & I are both so excited we can hardly stand it. We didn't think it would be til the 28th but I talked to the nurse today and asked for a 'favor'... I am looking forward to actually knowing what our baby is and being able to call him or her by name.

After next week we will be able to order our nursery furniture. We are going to decide on the color depending on the sex of the baby. Here is what we have picked out for a baby boy and this is the furniture we have decided for a baby girl. What do you think ??? We go tomorrow to check out the final swatches for the bedding. We have been undecided for both because the ones we really liked from pictures on the internet didn't look the same in person. I want to go more elegant and not so cute. I figure this will be the only time I have a say in what the room is decorated in. I just pray I never have to do Barney! :)

Hope you are all having a good week. Dad did a message lastnight and it was on the fruits of the spirit. I was really a good message. I hope to gather my thoughts and share it with you soon!

---Now '30 Something'

Well yesterday was another day for most people. For me, a little hard I should say. I know, I know, it shouldn't be that big of a deal but for some reason it was. I am no longer '30' but now '30 something'..... I turned 31 yesterday and it hit me! 30 wasn't a big deal to me but this birthday was. I guess I just feel I am getting OLD as Michelle said! Ha Ha!

I had a wonderful birthday... I celebrated this past weekend with family and friends. Yesterday I had lunch with Heather & Michelle and then lastnight my husband took my out. I always look forward to my birthday and this year was just as special I guess its just the age thing. Jeremy bought me the most beautiful necklace. I wish I had a picture to post. The one thing on our immediate list --- a digital camera and recorder! They are both a must really soon! I went to Dillards and spent all of my gift certificates and every dime my parents gave me! :0) If you haven't smelled Polo Blue check it out. I love it! Anyone who knows me knows I love flowers... I got roses from Jeremy and fresh flowers from Michelle. I honestly felt spoiled. Needless to say - I was blessed! Now to get over the fact I am no longer just 30!

Baby update! We went to the doctor on Monday. We had another ultra sound and NO we don't know what it is. The doctor has kept a close eye on me with me being diabetic but like everyone else I have to wait 18-20 weeks to find out what he or she is. We are dying to know! Heart beat was good, baby still as active as ever and sucking that little thumb. Great news! I have been going every 2 weeks and now I don't go back for 3. Thank you Lord for that! God is really helping me with the sugar control. He is such a great God! My next appointment is the 17th and that is when we will schedule to find out what this baby is. We have our nursery picked out for either a he or she so we will order furniture and bedding soon as we know. I'll keep you posted.

Did I tell you I know 14 people who are expecting! If you aren't one do not drink the water Ha Ha! Have a great weekend.