For my records ...

Well today is day 60 of our life style and healthy changes for our lives. God began dealing with me that I really needed to change some things. I ignored it for way too long. So my time is NOW.

On day 30 Jeremy and I did some measurements. I wanted to kinda see where I was loosing and how much from each month. It really encourages me because I realize we aren't 'dieting' or doing a calorie count but literally just changing things! I believe even if it is a slow process and not a crash course it is okay because we are doing this forever. We are taking control. It isn't just a diet for a period of time.

On day 30 5/21/12 we measured four points of my body. On day 60 6/21/12 I have lost 12 inches calculating those four points. I am so excited. Also, we did some other measurements tonight so I can also check those areas. Much encouragement for me.

I had lunch today with some of my girl pals.. Heather and Shannon. MUCH needed after a gloomy weekend/week without Griffin. Jeremy tried again to call the breeder of the Maltese to see if she had heard from Lisa, the lady we sold Griffin to b/c we were under the assumption we were getting him back if we could help her get another puppy. She even requested a girl and still ........... NO RESPONSE. I am still so very sad.  I needed some good laughs today and I was blessed.

Tonight we had Piercen's last t-ball game for this season. They played the Canes for the championship. They won. 24/22 and played great. They were so pumped, came TRYING hard and won. Yeah boys. My boy played so good. The past several games he has done so well. I am so proud of him. My momma, dad, both brothers and SIL came. Piercen was excited :)

Really trying to MAKE time to blog. I miss it and I read so many others when I should be journaling my own life<3

My heart is broken.. literally.

I can't believe we made this decision! We gave Griffin away on Saturday. I am sick. Just sick. The guys are doing better with it than I am and everyone keeps saying it will get better with time but I do not believe them. Anyone who knows me knows I am not an animal person. We actually prayed about getting him for Piercen for a very long time. It was perfect.. our idea of it all, planning it all out, the birthday celebration, the treasure hunt and now I am crushed. I feel like someone has died.

I know with puppies they bring some frustrations, I know he has had some accidents and I know we debated a few times getting rid of him because Piercen lost interest in playing. Almost like a new toy, you get it, your crazy about it and then a new one comes along. He would play with Griffin but seldom without saying "OK, Piercen you need to play with your puppy". I felt sorry for him. He would spent too much time in his crate. Then, he did have several accidents. I was SO mad a few times because once we had just taken him out and he came in to play with Piercen in his room and peed all over his new, adorable bed spread. BUT.. now that he is gone. I miss him. Kinda like the saying "You do not know what you have until it is gone". Yep.
Fits the situation to a T. I talked with my momma about it and she says with the heat and weather being HOT, then getting so COLD in the winter that type of dog didn't 'fit' our family. We would take Griffin everywhere with us.. well, until it became too hot. And maybe she is right. Maybe the type of dog we chose wasn't right but still ... I have no idea why if all of this is true why I feel so bummed. I now have to reap what I sowed. I agreed with Jeremy to get rid of him because he spent one day last week five hours in his crate, we came in and he was crying. I felt horrible.. the home he was going to have five children. I just knew it was best but now he is gone I am not feel that way at all. I love this little guy. I miss him. Jeremy has asked for him back,we tried to make an arrangement and the lady said we could and now for two days won't respond to our calls or texts.. I have a feeling we won't get him back ever again. Ya know, second chances. Wish I had one at this. URG. I have a huge feeling they are in love with him, that fast. I am.

I can say I love this puppy like I've never loved another animal before. He will always be part of my heart. I'm praying some how we can get him back. I can guarantee if we do I will never gripe about poop again!!!!