GUESS wHAt ?!?!?!

Just wanted to let everyone know that we didn't find out what our baby is (again) today! The ultrasound tech had the receptionist call and cancel my appointment. Come to find out my doctor didn't have any idea this had been done and and so here is the plan ....... My doctor himself is doing my ultrasound to let us know what this little one is on September 14th! My friends & family are going CrAZy having to wait! I was so upset when I found out it was cancelled. I was loving the anticipation of it all but so looking forward to today. I know God has something in store for this happening and as I have been told --- if it is to make sure without a doubt of what our baby is this is perfectly okay. I want to be sure because a friend of mine had to return all PINK! In all honesty, the Lord is teaching this little mommy patience! Oh, I almost forgot to report to you --- I lost another 2 lbs these past two weeks. I am so happy! Eating healthy sure pays off! I will keep you posted!

We are trying AgAiN

just a week away..... tHurSdAy !!!

Yes once again we will try to see what this little one is! Next Thursday @ 11:00 am. We are really excited. We have our names picked out for sure and I went by today to order a gift for Jeremy to give to him the morning we head over to the ultra sound!

Since being a diabetic the doctor has said the baby may be bigger... it was an inside joke between my husband and I that we'd have a "itty bitty" one because of the thought of it being bigger.... as in sumo wrestler! Ha Ha Funny thing.... everyone I know who is diabetic has had smaller babies! Jeremy now talks to the baby and calls he or she "itty bitty" so I went today and had a lady do a receiving blanket with a girraffe on it that says "Daddy's Itty Bitty"! it is going to be adorable! I also HAD to make sure to get one with a Arkansas Razorback that says "Daddy & I are HOG fans". I can't wait to give them to him!

Thanks for all your compliments to me about my weight loss... as one comment from Keri said it is kinda weird to say anything about that when your pregnant but healthy is very important to me! I have alot more to go when the baby is born. I have never set out to diet while being pregnant so don't think that!! God is just blessing me to be healthier for the baby as well as myself!

Tomorrow night is GNO (Girls Night Out) with my girlfriends and I can't wait. We are going to dinner, maybe some shopping and gotta see a CHICK FLICK! Wouldn't be GNO without it! We really have a good time and I am so blessed to be able to keep in touch with all my girlfriends - we grew up together and have known each other for years! As in 20 + years.. okay girls don't kill me... that does sound like forever ago!

Veronica, Thank you for your precious comment on my blog.... also I can't wait to find out what you are having !! Kristina, I am going to send you a pic really soon! You all have a great night. I am off to have dinner with my friend Machele.... hubby is in revival tonight! I soo miss him!

... a LoOOoP

I have to say how sorry I am to have thrown some of your for a 'loop'. My pictures "Thank Heaven for Little Boys" and "Thank Heaven for Little Girls" were just too cute... I had to post them but with the boy being on top it made some of you think we were having a BOY! I have had a few emails, phone calls and even ran into a friend today at lunch who said "you made me think you were having a BOY".... sorry!

I admit I was a disappointed on Friday when we were unable to find out what we were having. For one, we are ready to call this baby by his or her name! We are excited to reveal to family & friends the names and reason behind why we are naming our child the name we have chosen. Secondly, I am dying to get the nursery started and the furniture! BUT I must be patient.... Anyone who really knows me knows that I am not a patient person. The Lord is teaching me to be that is for sure!

I have to be honest though, it has been a blessing having not found out just yet. I never thought in a million years I would say that but it is true (Okay Michelle I know you really wanna know so you do not agree at all with that). The excitement and anticipation is something else! While I can't wait to know its been fUn, FuN, fun the past few days! People have called putting in a guess as to what they think the Lord is sending us and some of our special friends and eldery at church have just made our day! One lady told me that is all she thought about all day! I have come to realize deeply that God didn't just answer this prayer for Jeremy & I but we had people from all over praying for us --- it was a prayer God answered for many! It is so humbling to know that when some say they will pray, they will honestly seek the Lord on our behalf. God is such a great God!

You have all been a blessing to me and I thank you for checking on me. I am doing great and most of all feel so great. I have now lost 28 lbs and healthier every day. Yes, I said LOST 28 lbs. ....((( My doctor has praised me as long as they are good calories I am taking in and not empty ones!))) While moms welcome the opportunity to eat for two I have tried to be as healthy as possibe knowing I needed to AND it would be even harder to get off later. God has blessed every effort and after making these changes and feeling so good I can't say I will turn back even after the baby is born! This is just another answered prayer! My list could go on about answered prayers I am telling you and I know I will have more to report to you!

Veronica, I am praying for you today and the church situation! God will answer! Kristina, I am praying for your brother today. Sarah H, your on my heart girl --- remember your a child of the KING! He loves you!!! Michelle, your a YOUNG mom with OLD kids. You're awesome! Shannon, if you read this before GNO (Girls Night Out) Friday night --- I promise I won't post a picture to throw you for a LOOP next time! I'll call you instead!

Again....

I have tried to post again for the third time and once I am ready to save the post I get an error report and it erases my entire message to you. I will try again later!

The wait....

Well... the wait is going to be something else! Yesterday was my regular appointment with my OB doctor. I was given the great opportunity to be weighed, heard the heartbeat and .... had to cancel our 4D ultra sound for today! Good news! I have lost 28 lbs now. 9 right before I got pregnant and 19 since I my first appointment. Every two to three weeks because of me being a diabetic and at higher risk my doctor checks the heartbeat and if he can't get it really well with the doppler he will have me do a belly ultra sound.

.....Yesterday was one of those days! It was wonderful to get to see the baby and the heart rate is still 150-152 some say they can tell what it is by the heart rate --- its another 'some say' if you ask me! I did have to cancel the 4D to reveal the sex - well, I didn't have to but we chose to. She took a peek yesterday knowing we were bringing others with us the next day and she said everything is still so small AND the precious little thing was on its tummy, one arm under it and the other one --- sucking its thumb. No doubt about it -- a thumb sucker. If we would have went back today she said she would try again and maybe guess. I can't take a 'guess'. I am ordering nursery furniture, baby bedding and having someone come to paint the nursery... guessing isn't cool!



We go back on August 31st and will schedule it again then. It will be either Sept 1st or the days following labor day. I've gotten several emails so I am writing to you this way as we are fixing to walk out the door for the evening! I will respond to you all soon!

?? bOy OR gIrL ??

Your guess is as good as ours! Jeremy has said "It's a GIRL" for a really long time - actually since we have known we were expecting. Just yesterday he told me he wasn't sure! I haven't had a feeling either way. There are many reasons I think it could be a boy but just as many other reasons I think it could be a girl. So many people have told me that the mom usually has a feeling and 9 our of 10 times she is right. I just do not know!

I have done a little 'poll' to put into my journal just for fun... MANY people say girl. Infact, most of our close friends and family say girl but my mom thinks it is a boy and two other friends do. Veronica, I have your guess written down (boy). It is so funny at how people will try to guess by how you carry the baby or whether or not you have been sick. I have even had someone ask my if my belly has itched alot.... silly little things but I wonder just how true any of them really are! I know each woman is different and each pregnancy is different. I can honestly say -- it doesn't matter to Jeremy & I.

What is your guess ?

MORE

Friday is the big day for us! We are having our ultra sound to find out what this little baby is. Jeremy & I are excited and counting the days. I tell you, this pregnancy has honestly just flown. It hit me the other day that on the 19th I am half way finished. I can't ever go back and experience this perfect time in my life again... this has been the greatest experience in our lives! I would have never really known what love at first sight meant without having been blessed with this little life.

For many of you who know me know Jeremy & I have prayed for a baby for a while. While we didn't make it an 'obsession' to have one it was always on our prayer list. For a long time I longed for the day and my heart ached at the thought of never doing so. There would be times I would think "God are you ever going to bless us with a baby"? Some days I would even get kinda down and I would say "Jeremy, is it never going to be" ? He would always reply with "It will happen, it is in Gods timing, not ours". When I stop and look back over our lives in the past eight years I realize all along he had a perfect plan and now I can see that his timing was PERFECT --for only now. If God has taught me a million things he has taught me one thing a million times ---- TRUST HIM!

With me being diabetic I have prayed for a long time to have a healthy pregnancy. Honestly, with the exception of having to be put on insulin this pregnancy has been healthy. Today I weigh 27 1/2 lbs less than I did before it all began from eating healthy and having the desire to be healthy. I have been blessed to have been able to be put on the insulin, not to be sick doing so and to feel great. So many times I struggle with the mentality that I don't want to be daibetic... and the question.... why me?. God gently reminds me I must trust in HIM and he will see me to the end. I am also reminded that we all have a cross we have to bear. There is something in all of our lives whether it be physical, spiritual or whatever the cause may be.... it is in bearing our cross that we trust in HIM.

My whole pregnancy I have been full of great JOY! A joy I have never known before. My heart has overflown at the thought of the mercy and grace our God has shown to me. Just when I thought I was blessed I had no idea just how blessed God has really made me.... I could go on and on about this but to sum it all up for you one morning while on my way to work I heard a song and it has been in my heart every since. Every word of it! It is one of those songs that you really feel deep down minister to you. It is called MORE by Lauren Talley. If you have a chance please click on the link and it is under the tracking list of songs to listen to. It blesses me each time I hear it again. (It is actually part of the song, I couldn't find the entirety of the song on the net but you may be able to). God has honestly blessed me with so much more, more than I could ever ask him for. More than I had dreamed he had in store for me.... More than my hearts desire.... how could he possibly give more....

I can't wait!!!!

Well I have to share the news! We go next Friday on the 18th to find out whether we are having a boy or a girl. Jeremy & I are both so excited we can hardly stand it. We didn't think it would be til the 28th but I talked to the nurse today and asked for a 'favor'... I am looking forward to actually knowing what our baby is and being able to call him or her by name.

After next week we will be able to order our nursery furniture. We are going to decide on the color depending on the sex of the baby. Here is what we have picked out for a baby boy and this is the furniture we have decided for a baby girl. What do you think ??? We go tomorrow to check out the final swatches for the bedding. We have been undecided for both because the ones we really liked from pictures on the internet didn't look the same in person. I want to go more elegant and not so cute. I figure this will be the only time I have a say in what the room is decorated in. I just pray I never have to do Barney! :)

Hope you are all having a good week. Dad did a message lastnight and it was on the fruits of the spirit. I was really a good message. I hope to gather my thoughts and share it with you soon!

---Now '30 Something'

Well yesterday was another day for most people. For me, a little hard I should say. I know, I know, it shouldn't be that big of a deal but for some reason it was. I am no longer '30' but now '30 something'..... I turned 31 yesterday and it hit me! 30 wasn't a big deal to me but this birthday was. I guess I just feel I am getting OLD as Michelle said! Ha Ha!

I had a wonderful birthday... I celebrated this past weekend with family and friends. Yesterday I had lunch with Heather & Michelle and then lastnight my husband took my out. I always look forward to my birthday and this year was just as special I guess its just the age thing. Jeremy bought me the most beautiful necklace. I wish I had a picture to post. The one thing on our immediate list --- a digital camera and recorder! They are both a must really soon! I went to Dillards and spent all of my gift certificates and every dime my parents gave me! :0) If you haven't smelled Polo Blue check it out. I love it! Anyone who knows me knows I love flowers... I got roses from Jeremy and fresh flowers from Michelle. I honestly felt spoiled. Needless to say - I was blessed! Now to get over the fact I am no longer just 30!

Baby update! We went to the doctor on Monday. We had another ultra sound and NO we don't know what it is. The doctor has kept a close eye on me with me being diabetic but like everyone else I have to wait 18-20 weeks to find out what he or she is. We are dying to know! Heart beat was good, baby still as active as ever and sucking that little thumb. Great news! I have been going every 2 weeks and now I don't go back for 3. Thank you Lord for that! God is really helping me with the sugar control. He is such a great God! My next appointment is the 17th and that is when we will schedule to find out what this baby is. We have our nursery picked out for either a he or she so we will order furniture and bedding soon as we know. I'll keep you posted.

Did I tell you I know 14 people who are expecting! If you aren't one do not drink the water Ha Ha! Have a great weekend.